Charmin-Ultra: Don't Squeeze Me

Dear Calum:Today was my last day in Taiwan and I was trying to spend as much time with youas possible. But I know I have to say good bye after all. I have to learn to let go. I think it is the hardest thing for me. I never imagined this before. I mean I never understood why parents always couldn't let their children go before. Now I am a mother and have to make this decision. And I understand now.I was a bit agitated tonight because I was anxious about the new life ahead of me and also sad about leaving you in Taiwan. So we had a little clash. Then you and I talked about my leaving again. We both cried. That was good. Baby I know I have told you over and over again to be brave. But it is OK to cry; to express your true feelings to ones who love you and whom you love. We hugged each other and I told you your favorite story (The little red riddinghood) and sang you the theme song from Doramo. You finally fell asleep holdling my arm close to your heart. I feltyour heartbeats from excitedly beating to finally calming down. I kissed your hair and face, then I came here to write you this diary.There are 16 hours before I leave. I still have something to take care of. I will turn in pretty soon and sleep with my baby one for the last night. Grandma told me that you talked to Daddy tonight. I hope you enjoyed it. I am very tired now. So I will keep this diary short. Love, Mommy